First of all, I would like to state my gratitude to Ann and spirits who helped me and who did the most of the work, which matters to me the most. I also have to thank God and Jesus Christ whom Ann strongly believes in, for their support.
Although Ann told me to write every spiritual experiences I had, I’d like to avoid to write about some people I hurt in details, because I feel guilty so much, I could still think negatively, and I’m afraid of the bad luck coming back to me.
Right now, I am very tired of living as a human and feel not quite happy about it. To the things I am going to write from now on, some exceptions may apply. Meaning, it’s not applicable for everyone.
With the knowledge I got from the glance of the Bible study book and some new age materials, it seems like we are not truly living our lives. In other words, we live under the control and influences, and many people are not truly aware of that. I guess Bible explains we belong to God and we live in accordance with his plan. Scientists revealed our emotion and decision are controlled by genes, etc.
Ann showed me that I was controlled by my karma and negativity, and there are many things that ordinary people can’t sense affect us, such as spirits and energy. It’s good to know things I didn’t know, and once I know new things I don’t want to go back to my old place. So, I don’t like humans’ limited perception and understanding, and the tendency. Limited perception with our first to fifth senses and limited sixth sense, limited understanding about physical and non physical world, and the tendency to be materialistic, selfish, greedy and evil, therefore we lose the connection with God. It might be the consequence of the story Adam and Eva ate forbidden apple, or it might be necessary in the reincarnation to learn our lessons and clarify our karma.
I have to admit, though it was very hard, correcting my mistake and the following experiences are very valuable and meaningful for me. Because, I have learned there is so much more in this world, and I have experienced so much negativity, such as selfishness, jealousy, distrust, destructiveness, grudge, etc. I agree with the idea the actual experiences are crucial for understanding. My only regret is I caused a lot of troubles and hurt many people. I tried to do my best to save those people, I had no other choice and it was my priority. I also wanted to make my unlucky life better as the consequence, but that came afterwards.
During this time, my trust to God has changed for some extent. In the beginning, I believed in God, and toward the end it turned into defiance and distrust to God. However, this belief hasn’t changed. In the difficult time, I surrendered and left things in God’s hands, and I thought, ‘If God decides to help me, I would be saved, but if he doesn’t, I have to accept that.’
Now I think God and Jesus Christ are worth believing in, because Ann, my savior believes in them. She recommended me to study Bible, and it would be the great guide for me. I wish God would help me completely, and grant the opportunities to help many people.
But…It’s a pity I have to look for God in every life.
I just wish— to restore the full abilities and knowledge my spirit has got, and not to continue the lives as a human, I’d like to find a way to get out of the reincarnation, and law of karma. It might require higher spiritual nature, and take a long long time, but it is the only hope for me. I wish I could bring joy, happiness, and spirituality to Yakov, too.
As Ann said, many things were kept unrevealed to me. I think she did so for her work, and because everything was not supposed to be revealed to us. I understand she is doing her best every day, and can’t call her clients so often. However, I’d like to suggest this for her, consistent explanation and contacting clients often would bring their trust to her and her work, and that would make her easy to do work and reduce the possible burden.
No one ever helped me like Ann did. She is an extraordinary, and the most reliable person I ever met. I wish I could give her back more than I got from her.
- Yuko
